What I believe

Someone on ReveLife today asked someone else "How did you come to believe there is a God?"

It made me stop because usually the question is "Why do you believe there is a God." And the answers are different.

I believe in a God now because I can see the changes in my life over the last 7.5 years and know that I certainly didn't have the ability to change that way on my own. Especially not overnight like it happened.

I believe in a God now because I've seen, literally seen, demons. They've talked to me and I to them. Creepy? Yes. Fiction? Hardly. I wasn't dreaming, I wasn't on drugs. I was 15, I was angry, I was asking the devil for favors...not a smart thing to do. And anyway, if there's a devil and demons there has to be Someone on the opposing side.

I believe in a God now because I can feel something in heart leap when I hear certain music or Bible verses or messages. It's like when you're in love and that person does something that makes your heart flutter. Only I'm alone in the car listening to Christian music or something.

BUT: these things all happened after I already believed there was a God. So how did I come about to believing it?
I don't know. I believed as a kid that there was a God who sat up in the sky and watched you do bad things and thought of ways to punish you. And if you did good things He may or may not be proud of you and give you some cosmic gold star to help you get into Heaven.

Thinking of this made me remember how smart kids are. I think we wholly underestimate them. Kids often say things we think are weird or stupid or just wrong, but I bet they're closer to the truth than we are. Kids see things we miss. They don't have the defense mechanisms in place to convince themselves of something other than what they know.

We learned in Peds class that kids go through a stage of "magical" thinking before they hit the logic stage. After they learn to reason they throw magic out of the equastion.

But I think we are worse off for it.

I believe in magic. Which would freak out or intimidate a lot of Christians. But I don't mean I have a cauldron of newt's eye's bubbling in my closet, or that I think you can wave a wand and drop a sink on a troll's head. But I think humans are connected on a level we can't see, hear, touch, smell or prove exists.

I think that there are times when you can't get someone out of your head and it means they need something from you.

I think when we pray the future actually changes.

I think we are drawn to certain people and repelled by others, without ever even locking eyes.

"That feeling" you get. That 6th sense, or intuition (which is actually used in scientific nursing literature, btw) is magic. Humans are magical creatures. (Magical, spiritual, it's all the same to me.)

And kids see the magic. Kids, animals and crazy people. They all sense your "aura" way better than anyone else. It's because they're closer to the raw center of their being and further displaced from "logic."

But this is all my opinion of course. I can't prove it, but I believe it.

Proof is overrated anyway. "Silly rabbit, proofs are for geometry problems!" (And I always sucked at geometry)

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to my legillimens lessons...