Somewhere in the mix of not getting any sleep the last week, skipping a weeks worth of yoga, seeing the things I see in clinicals, reading the things the moronic things they write on ReveLife, being reminded that American's don't care about anyone but themselves and that's how the rest of the world is always going to see us, and stupidly thinking I could take on the world..........I've exhausted myself.
I feel like I'm running on fumes and they too are almost gone.
Like the one time my car died on the highway and I knew it coming so I tried frantically to make it to exit but the more I stomped on the gas in my desperate attempt to make it to a safe stopping point, the more the car slowed down until I was positive I was going to be stranded in the far lane of traffic in Nashville.
That is how I feel.
I feel like I invited a whole bunch of people to come siphon off my gas, thinking that I could get to the next exit before I needed any..........and then found out there are no exits!!!!!! Anywhere!!!
I'm so exhausted.
I'm so tired of running around and around and trying to point out the atrocities going on and no one is listening. And the only people who ever hear anything I say want to tell me I'm a horrible person who obviously hates everyone and wants them all to die.
I mean, rights for women and children are my entire world. I fight tooth and nail for them. This has been a passion of mine for ten years! Almost half my lifetime. To be told I obviously have "no empathy" for my gender makes me want to simultaneously die and rip their face off. Figuratively, of course.
If I could find Jonah (from the Bible) I would wring his little neck and shake him and then beat him with his dead little tree for being so ungrateful when he was sent to people who listened to his message and changed their actions. Grrrrrrrrrrr. The fiend!
*attempts to clean up the word-vomit that just flew everywhere*
Ok, so not everyone hates me. But have you ever notices that it only takes one negative person to completely unbalance all the positive people? Why is that? Is that some ploy to make us ineffective at life or what?
Because I feel ineffective at life, that's for sure.
Ok I'm stopping now because I sound kind of like Jonah, and that is not allowed!
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