Sunday, August 26, 2012

Ashamed

I must admit, I have been sucked into the world of Honey Boo Boo child.
I initially refused to watch even clips of the show because of my horrid distaste for the awful people on Toddlers and Tiaras, so I have no idea how I wound up watching entire episodes of Here Comes Honey Boo Boo, but heres the thing: it's not that bad.
Shocking.
Really, they are is not the worst family the network could have picked to give a spin-off...
--Alana encourages and claps for other girls in the pageants, unlike a lot of the brats on Toddlers and Tiaras
--Although the family is grossly overweight, there is a running side story of them trying and failing to lose weight in a way that is far more realistic than the weight-loss shows
--The Go-Go juice thing is disturbing, but so is what the majority of American parents feed their kids on a daily basis
--They don't win the pageants so it's hard to believe that they are exploiting their daughter (except for the tv show of course, but its become more about the mom than the kid)
--As bizarre as the family is, they are actually far from dysfunctional.  Surprisingly.
--The girls have an amazing sense of self-worth, despite being relatively unattractive and significantly overweight.
--I don't know if they get welfare (I assume so...) but at least the dad works and mom clips coupons (and then tries to teach her kids math at the store)


The "facts" they know are really entertaining as well
--If you fart 15 times a day it means you're healthy (mom)
--10-15 farts a day will help you lose weight (teen sister)
--Teacup pigs only get to be 5-6 pounds (mom)
--Vaginas look like biscuits.  If it's cooked right.  Like from Hardees. (mom)
--There's flesh-eating bacteria in the local swimming hole, so it's not safe.  But diving into giant mud puddles is ok. (mom)
--Elvis is Santa's helper.  (Alana)

"I think I'm gonna be an okay mom" -- teen sister
"It won't even weigh you!  You so fat it won't weigh you!" --Alana to mom

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

3 hours of a conversation to nowhere and two entire Adele albums later... ...who's ready for AUSTRALIA??!?!?!?!?!?

Mememememememememememe!

I'm even looking forward to 20 hours of trying to find a comfortable position on ze plane while watching movies on a 4 inch screen and eating trail mix to stave off hunger between overcooked mystery meat entrees.  No, really, I am.  I'm a freak.  I enjoy everything about international travel.  Except waiting in line to go through customs.  That is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awful.  Because you are exhausted and just want to collapse onto a bed.  Or the floor.  And you have to stand in line with a bunch of other foreigners from God-knows-where who don't speak your language while you watch all the native people arriving home go through the short line like "see ya beyotches!!" (or at least that's what I'm like when I breeze through US customs on arriving home)

I'm excited about staying a hostel for the first time and exploring a crazy new city just me and bebe seester.  And about all the mad exciting shit I have planned for us.  And all the downtime to visit the beach and go out dancing and listen to hott Aussie boys try to convince me why I should go home with them (try being the operative word).  And enjoy the cooler weather.  And maybe meet up with that PICU nurse I just met who just happens to also be in Brisbane next week. 

Coincidence?
I think NOT!

No, actually, it totally is a coincidence.  But a weird one.

I still have to pack.  I have new luggage on its way.  Very exciting.  It's pink plaid.  I cannot wait.  I spend so much money on adventures, it is unreal.  You'd think by now I'd have everything I needed for these trips.  You'd be wrong!  Every trip I learn something else I need whether it's luggage that doesn't look like everyone else's, an adapter/converter so I don't have to keep all my electronics off to the point I might as well have not brought them, an airplane pillow so I can sleep, Airborne, more local currency (you can literally not bring too much)...

...I just realized that since this is the first international trip not affiliated with a church, I can drink alcohol on the plane!  SCORE!!!  My trip is set.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Libra Zebra

Going through Clarabelle's fashion blog today she had a picture of a giraffe necklace and mentioned it was her spirit animal.  Having an obsession with online quizzes and surveys I have taken ones that were supposed to tell me my "spirit animal" but they were always stupid.  Seeing her necklace I thought of my own zebra necklaces and love for the little black and white striped delightfulness, and googled "zebra spirit animal" on a whim.  When the results page showed "Zebra, Power Animal, Symbol of Individuality, Balance" I thought BAZINGA!  Here's Ina Woolcott's incredibly spot-on description of me:

The zebra’s gifts include seeing in black and white, clarity without filters, balance, agility, uniqueness, power, sureness of path, keeping up individuality within the herd.

The zebra's black and white stripes camouflage it against predators, who often cant identify individuals in the herd. However to the herd members the patterns are unique from zebra to zebra, helping to identify one another - they are as unique as our fingerprints. Blending into a crowd without losing your individuality is one powerful aspect of Zebra. Zebras also help us to be supportive members within our communities. These abilities protect them from danger, as well as their agility and speedy.


I have always said that my ability to adapt and remain unnoticed is one of my greatest assets.  I am small and physically fairly weak so being able to slip past people who would hurt me is an advantage.  Just like the zebra who is easily killed due to their weak spinal column, I have to either hide from or outrun my enemies.

The stripes also represent the blending and balancing of opposites, yin yang, harmony - enabling us to see a deeper truth.


If this is your power animal, study its ability to survive and flourish in a harsh land. Look at your relationship to the various groups in your life. Compromising in personal relationships can be challenging, but Zebras enjoy challenge as they know that all challenges are a chance for growth. Use your mental ability to work around problems and barriers, rather than confronting them - Zebra will show you how.

I don't need zebra to show me how.  I am zebra.  I'd much rather make a situation go away than face it head on, even if facing it would take less time and energy.

Zebras are members of the horse family, living in small family herds made up of a stallion and some mares with their foals. Zebras mix with antelope herds, giving the Antelopes protection from predators because of the zebras alertness. People with this power animal frequently fit the shoes of a kind hearted protector of loved ones, whether family or friends. They make great therapists and are genuinely compassionate towards others.

Hells yes.  Stay away from my antelopes (family, friends, patients), they're MINE.

Questioning reality and illusion is common amongst people with zebra medicine, though an over analytic intellect can be a hindrance for some with this totem. In others the imagination must be awakened.

Anyone who has been around me while I'm unmedicated knows I have trouble telling reality from fiction.  Anyone who has been around me at all, ever, knows I am over-analytical.

The zebras pattern of black on white, or white on black implies that what you see is not always what you get. Occult knowledge seen and unseen, dimensional shifts, new journeys and worldly endeavours are all aspects of this.

I have always been sensitive to spirits.  Evil spirits.  People's spirits.  I can't communicate with them or see them or anything.  I'm not a demon-hunter.  I just sense energies.  Or something. 
This is part of why I am medicated.

Zebras are master magicians, who utilise the energy of light and dark to shift realities and expand our consciousness, helping us see past our preconceived beliefs as they lead us into the mystery and magic of the unseen.

Multiple times I've been told that I changed someone's mind on an issue.
And we all know where I stand on magic.

Zebras seek balance in what they do, and they are sure of themselves, standing confidently in the middle of opposing forces. Those with this power animal are taught similar skills.

BALANCE!!!!!!  It's like my mantra or something.  It pops up in every description of me.  I use it constantly when describing why something is bothering me.  It is so important to me in every aspect of my life.  And I am always in the middle of opposing forces, especially the opposing forces inside of myself.


 

Friday, June 15, 2012

I know its another survey, but its better than nothing right?

  1. Are you young at heart, or an old soul?   Definitely young at heart.  I still don't get a lot of innuendos, I'll laugh at nearly anything, I believe in true love and that people can change, forgive way too easily, and play every chance I get.
  2. What makes someone a best friend?  Their ability to continue to love you when you disappoint them, make you laugh when you want to cry, keep your secrets and accept you even as you change over the years
  3. What Christmas (or Hanukkah) present do you remember the most?  Mostly the ones my dad gives me because they're never anything that I asked for but I still love them, and more so I love that he knows me that well
  4. Tell me about a movie/song/tv show/play/book that has changed your life. The Lost Get Found by Britt Nicole played a vital role in getting me in Xroads...and the rest is history
  5. Name one physical feature that you like about yourself, and one you dislike. Like: my hair.  Dislike: my thighs
  6. Would you like to reconnect with any friends you’ve lost contact with? Not particularly.  If I did, I could.  That's what facebook is for, right?
  7. What’s more important in a relationship: physical attraction or emotional connection?  Both are equally important.  A relationship without emotional connection is torture, but one without physical attraction isn't going to go anywhere.
  8. Name a movie that you knew would be terrible just from reading the title.  Beowulf
  9. What holiday do you most look forward to?  CHRISTMAS!!!!!
  10. How is the relationship between you and your parents?  Tis good....now
  11. You’ve got the TV on, but you’re not really watching. What channel is the TV on?  Nick at night...it's what I always put the break room TV on, but we're always just chatting anyway
  12. Name a song that never fails to make you happy.   Gimmie That Girl
  13. You know at least one person named Michael. Tell me about him.  My best guy friend.  He knows 90% of everything.
  14. Have you ever read the “missed connections” on Craigslist? Have you ever posted one, or wanted to?  Haha, I used to read those when I got super bored at work in Florida.  No I've never posted one, have you read them?  They're ridiculous!
  15. If you could pick anywhere to live the rest of your life, where would it be?  Cincinnati.  Yup.  Sarah, Xroads, a job I enjoy...
  16. Can money buy happiness?  No, but it can buy Zoloft.  And cupcakes.  ...zoloft cupcakes...
  17. Do you drink? Smoke? Do drugs? Why, or why not?  Occasionally, no, no.  Because drinking is fun and tasty...smoking is gross and makes me lungs go spasm-spasm
  18. Is there anyone close to you that you know you can’t trust? You don’t have to give names. Know I can't trust?  No.  Probably can't trust?  *sigh* yes.
  19. Where was your favorite place to go when you were a little kid?  My grandparents' houses.
  20. Have you ever spent a night in the hospital?  3 times a week.  Oh wait, as a patient.  Yes, only for an emergency that multiple physicians missed and almost killed me. 
  21. Do you enjoy being with only one or two friends, or with a large group of people?  I prefer one-on-one usually, but large group are fantastic for dancing and laughing and eating.  Not eating large groups of people.  I don't do bath salts.  See question 17
  22. Do you like the type of music your parents listen to? Do your parents like the type of music you listen to?  Sometimes.  We both listen to contemporary Christian music but I also like Gaga and other things they're probably not so fond of.
  23. Have you ever been bullied? Have you ever bullied anyone else?  I had a couple weird tics when I was in grade school that got me bullied by one mean kid at church in particular.  I learned to control them for the most part, and have been fine ever since.  And yes, to be honest, I've bullied other people...
  24. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be? Pasta
  25. If your partner wanted to wait until marriage before having sex, would you stay in that relationship? Hell yes.
  26. Do you believe in a god? Absolutely
  27. Of all the social networks in the world, why use Tumblr? Because it's awesome.
  28. What’s your favorite Tumblr tag to track? I don't track tags, just follow my awesome peeps
  29. Would you call yourself/your family “middle class?”  I'm paying for my sister and I to go to Australia in a month, just because I can and I want to.  Yes.  I'd say I'm middle class/upper-middle class.
  30. Name a TV series you didn’t watch until after it ended.  Firefly.  WWWWWAAAAAAAHHHH!! 
  31. Have you ever bought a product from an infomercial?  Ummmm...I don't think so...  I have always wanted a chia pet though...
  32. If you could give up your car and never have to drive again, would you? HELLS YES!!  I hate driving and think riding a bike everywhere is just infinitely cooler
  33. If you go back to one point in time to give advice to yourself, when would you go and what would you say?  I wouldn't.  That would change everything.
  34. What’s your “quirkiest” habit?   Have you met me?
  35. What is “normal?” Are you normal?  Normal = boring. I am definitely not normal.
  36. Someone close to you is dying. You have the choice to let this person live for 10 more years, but if you do, you cause the death of 10 strangers. You don’t have to see them die. Do you take the offer?  Do I get to pick them?  Can they be rapists/baby murderers?  Probably still no.  Couldn't do it.  It's not right.  Plus, with my luck the person I love would live but be in a coma or MRDD or something ala Drogo from Game Of Thrones when Dany tries to sacrifice for his life and loses everything and he turns out to be basically a retarded zombie, minus the flesh eating
  37. What is one thing you could never forgive?  I have forgiven all the things I thought I never could....except murder...so I assume I could probably forgive that too.  God is kind of crazy good when it comes to helping you with stuff like that
  38. Would you rather be in a relationship after the honeymoon period ends, or be single?  Oh be in the r/ship for sure
  39. Is it possible for guys and girls to be just friends?  Yes, if there is no physical attraction between them
  40. Where do you and your friends go to hang out?  Our homes.  We are so boring.  But not normal.
  41. Write the first paragraph of your obituary.  No.
  42. What is the best TV theme song ever?  Our whole universe was in a hot dense state then nearly 14 billion years ago expansion started, wait.  The earth began to cool, the autotrophs began to drool, neanderthals developed toes, we built the wall, we built the pyramids!  Mad science history unraveling the mystery that all started with the big bang, HEY!
  43. When you were young, what would you dream you would be when you grew up?  A paramedic-teacher-mom
  44. When you’re alone in your own home, do you walk around naked?  That is one of the very few joys of being home alone!
  45. What gets you out of bed in the morning?  My torso, bending and shifting my legs over the edge of the bed, lifting my head and shoulders to an upright position
  46. Do you want to have more friends than you have right now?  Not particularly.  I have awesome friends
  47. What part of the past year sticks out in your mind?  February-now
  48. You win a scratch-off lottery game that gives you $2000 a week (after taxes) for the rest of your life. Do you keep your job?  Part time, sure.
  49. Could you be in a long-distance relationship? If you’re in one, what makes yours work?  I could.  I have been.  Lots of texting helped. 
  50. What’s the best route to your heart?  Xroads, country music, cuddling, and secrets.
  51. Have you ever met someone through the internet, then met them in real life?  No.
  52. What is your favorite sport?  To watch?  Gymnastics.  To participate in?  Running, duh
  53. What has been troubling you lately?  The boy.
  54. Did you enjoy your high school prom? If you haven’t gotten there yet, do you look forward to it? If you didn’t go, why not?  Didn't have one.  I did go to JS though.  And I went to Sarah's schools prom as a chaperone last month.  Fun!
  55. What do you use more often: your intuition or logical reasoning?  They war.  All.  The.  Time.  I am so analytical, but I want what I want.
  56. Do you know what makes you happy?  Listening to rain on the roof, service projects where I have to work with my hands, traveling, laughing a lot, holding hands...
  57. Tell me about the last book you read.  Everybody died.  Or is in the process of dying.  Or will die.  Song of Ice and Fire series.  It's Rowling and Collins combined: everybody gets to die!
  58. What is the nicest compliment you’ve ever been given?  That someone adores me
  59. Who was your first crush?  This little toddler my mom's friend used to babysit.  I have no idea who he was, but we used to sit under the table in the playroom together and I remember being really excited to sit next to him to eat lunch once.  I think it was soup.  I was 2.
  60. Do you believe that there is life on other planets?  I used to think no.  Now I'm not so sure...
  61. Predict what your life will look like a year from now.  Probably much the same as it does now.  And that's ok.
  62. Often, people will ask how your last relationship ended. I want to know how it began.  The last one began on a camping trip with CUEMS when he fell out of the boat while white water rafting and I pulled him back in.  That one went really well.  Not.
  63. Where is your favorite place to go out and eat?  Montgomery Inn.  Yummmmmm
  64. What is something you want to change about your current situation?  That I felt more secure
  65. Early bird or night owl?  Night owl.  100%
  66. Are there any childhood possessions you still hold on to?  My stuffed animals and a few books.
  67. Give me an unpopular opinion you have.  Homosexuality is a sin.  But it's no bigger a deal than any other sin.  That's unpopular on both sides of the fence.
  68. What was the last song that was stuck in your head?  Don't remember, but Shelley was just singing Home On the Range...
  69. Where do you live? Be as general or specific as you want. In a townhouse.
  70. Do you believe in giving kids medals and trophies for participation? Psh.  No.  It's a waste of resources (that just get pitched eventually, after cluttering up someones house) and it teaches them that they shouldn't do anything they don't get something out of.  Boo hiss.
  71. What was the longest car ride you’ve ever taken?  Ohio to Colorado to New Mexico to Texas then back to Ohio.
  72. Have you ever taken part in a protest?  No, but I so would
  73. Would you ever use an online dating service?  I used eHarmony.  That was kind of scary and lame at the same time
  74. What is your ethnic heritage?  German-Irish-British-Welsh-French-Native American
  75. Describe a person that inspires you.  Dr. Brown was always so inspriring becuase he was so strong in his beliefs and still sooooooooooo loving toward everyone
  76. If you earn minimum wage doing what you love, would you?  I've done this for free, so, yeah
  77. Do you believe in luck?  I believe in God's grace.  That means sometimes we get way more than we could ever deserve
  78. Describe the last time you were very angry at someone.  The last time I had an ass for a patient's family
  79. Do you want to live until you’re 100?  No.  Not at all
  80. Do people change? If so, how do you keep a relationship together when both of you start to change?  Of course they do.  You love each other and you allow each other to do things without you if you don't both enjoy them.  Compromise and love.
  81. Have you ever risked a friendship by telling someone you liked them?  Once.  It wasn't much of a risk though, since I was pretty sure he liked me too
  82. Would you rather be alone doing something you enjoy, or doing something you don’t like with your best friends?  Depends on how long I'll be doing it.  I don't want to be alone for too long
  83. Do you practice what you preach?  I try to.  It is pretty hard to love people who hurt you though
  84. If you take precautions to stay safe, do you ultimately act more recklessly?  Huh?
  85. What do you value more in a significant other: Attractiveness or intelligence?  Attractiveness.  I'm smart enough for both of us.  Is that a bad thing to say?
  86. Are you hard-headed?  People would probably say so
  87. Have you ever laughed uncontrollably when it was socially inappropriate?  Oh, all the time
  88. When have you felt most alive?  Outside, with the wind in my hair
  89. Would you prefer to live? A city? The suburbs? The countryside? The mountains?  City or mountains.
  90. Do you often skip breakfast?  NEVER!!! Breakfast is love
  91. How do you know what true love is?  You can see their faults but you want them in your life anyway, and vice versa
  92. Would you want to know the exact date and time you were going to die?  Psh, no
  93. Where is “home” for you?  Cincinnati
  94. What song best describes your life right now?    Sparks Fly by Taylor Swift and Strong Enough to Save by Tenth Avenue North
  95. Do you want to be perfect?  Why would I?  I'm pretty awesome already!
  96. What have you never tried, but would really like to someday? What’s holding you back?  Skydiving.  Gotta find someone to do it with me.
  97. How do you express your creativity?  Sketching, mostly.  Collaging pinterest and tumblr pictures.  Journaling
  98. Describe your neighborhood.  Apartment complex, lots of kids playing.  Blah
  99. Name something you only liked because it was popular.  Sillybandz, lol
  100. Give me the story of your life in six words.  Is "I was lost, now I'm found" too cheesey?  Yes.  But I'm tired.  Gimme a break

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Because I've done nothing all day...

1. Name something you love.
The internet: HP, Dr. Who, tumblr, digital photos, vacation planning, etc etc etc.  The internet is mad awesome.
2. Assume you have all the money and all the time in the world. What kind of pet do you want
One that doesn't shed, slobber or poop.  K9!!!!
3. What should you be doing right now?
Running.  Cooking.  Cleaning.  Anything but sitting here on the internet.
4. What is your favourite ice cream flavour? 
Coconut Chip from Graeters or basically anything from Young's Dairy
5. What is your favourite quote this very minute?
I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye
6. Who was the last person you spoke to in person?
Sar-noodle
7. What has been the best gift you have ever received?
I always love gifts from my dad bc I am always surprised that he knows me well enough to get something I like even though it's hardly ever anything I asked for.
8. Proper grammar on the internet: discuss.
Unnecessary when talking shit with your friends.  Imperitive when debating something intelligent.  Common courtesy when it's going to be seen by people you've never met.
9. If you have a favourite meme, what is it?
LIKE ALL THE MEMES!!!!
10. How did you get into tumblr?
The bebe seester had one
11. What is your favourite beverage?
My secret recipe hot chocolate.
1. How tall are you?64in
2. From your favorite game/story/movie/etc., What is your OTP?
Snape and Lily.  FOREVER.  Or the doctor and Rose, bc they actually both loved each other instead of it being a one sided thing...
3. What is your opinion on LGBT related things?
That I have much bigger fish to fry.  While children starve to death and people die from diseases that can be prevented and/or treated with pennies worth of antibiotics and women and girls are raped for fun and/or profit I cannot be too upset about the LGBT things.  Bigger fish to fry.
4. Favorite Animal. Go.
Bats.  Love their portable blankets.  *sigh*
5. what is your favorite video game? Any console. No, not video game series, video game. So, dont say “Legend of Zelda”, or “Kingdom Hearts”. Say “Skyward Sword”, or “358/2 Days”.
uhhhhh...yeah.......about that...does The SIMS count?
6. Best vacation ever?
Probably NOLA 2011
7. If you could go anywhere in world, where would you go, and why?
So. Many. Places.  Can't. Think.  AAHHH!!!!!
8. Favorite piece of technology?
My iPhone.  Life in my pocket.
9. On a scale from We’re all going to die to Fuck yeah bring it on, how prepared are you for the zombie apocalypse?
Depends on the type of zombie and how soon I find out about it.  I can outrun/outsmart the original types of zombies.  And if I have enough warning I can get to the bebe seester and she will protect me with her zombie-pocalypse plans.  Otherwise I will definitely definitely die.  But by my own hand.  Bc I will NOT come back as a gooey flesh eater.
10. Second favorite animal?
Turtles.  So cute.
11. Last thing you read? I mean, before reading my questions and answers.
Some random's tumblr.  Information on traveling to Australia.  David Tennant's IMDB page. Text's from a girl at work trying to trade shifts with me.  This month's Redbook.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Plans for this weekend

Go back to sleep
Wake up
Flying Pig expo: pick up packet.  Do not spend half a paycheck on running stuff.
Car wash (my reward for FINALLY cleaning out my car after my camping trip at the beginning of NOVEMBER)
Xroads
Clean the apartment
Roll out my muscles and stre-e-e-e-e-e-etch
Eat lots of carbs
Go to bed early.  Sleep a lot.
Get up.
Run 13.1 miles in a piggie hat.  Try not to die.  Curse not having trained nearly as much as I should have.  Vow to do better.
Limp home.
Collapse.
Ice bath.
Sleep.
Whine about how sore I am.
Sleep.
Wear my finishers medal like a badass.
Sleep.
Eat everything in the apartment.
Sleep.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Today's realization: I am April Kepner

Sar and I watched last week's Grey's episode tonight and I came to the final conclusion that, while I looooooooooove Christina and Arizona, the character I am most like is actually April Kepner.  Case:

You either love her or hate her.  Her personality either grates on you like you're swallowing broken glass, or you find her cheerful peppiness adorable.  No one feels neutral about April.  Either you want her to STFU or be your best friend.  (Personally I usually want her to STFU)

She is the most insecureShe's smart, organized, her patients love her, she can get impossible jobs done.  She is one of the best doctors but she is obsessed with failure.  Constantly fussing over schedules and lists and tests, worrying about getting people to like her, convinced she is going to bomb whatever task is ahead of her.

She makes mistakes.  Remember when she actually got kicked out of the program because she let that burn victim die a couple years ago?  (That was infuriating, a nurse would've caught that.  Ugh!)  Everyone else makes horrible decisions all the time, but she's the only one whose decision really came back to bite her in the ass.

She falls for inappropriate people.  Remember when she fell in love with Derek??  That was creepy.  And then the new Peds attending who was like 50-something?  And who can forget Alex in the on-call room.  Jeese, girl, get it together!  Now of course there's her best friend, Avery, which is heading for disasterville...unfortunately, since I've been shipping them since season 6.

She's the girl next door.  When held at gunpoint she spills her guts to the shooter, revealing she's from Ohio and stating "I haven’t done anything yet. I haven’t. I’ve barely lived. All I’ve done is win science fairs and go to medical school. I’m not finished yet. I’m not finished yet. No one’s loved me and, please. Please. I’m someone’s child! I’m someone’s sister. I’m a person. I’m a person."

Superfreak.  This is the title of the episode where April not only reveals she's pretty much the only virgin in the entire freaking hospital, but also that she is the most hardcore of all the doctors: the only one able to pass the Trauma Simulation, securing her identity at the trauma junkie, the soldier, Hunt's little protege.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

CH-ch-ch-changes

Mmmmm, not sure I am liking the new Xroads series.
I might have to *gag* CHANGE.

Me no likey change.  I joke with family about me being "a little autistic."  And what I mean by that is that when anything changes, even the slightest bit, it has the potential to completely set me off.
I can do six zillion things at once.  But don't try to get my attention while I'm talking to someone on the phone.  I won't be able to hear a single thing either of you say to me after that until you both shut up and let me breathe for a moment.
If I have to stop my flow to reset a password on an app, I've been known to give up on everything completely and walk away.
I will sit in front of the computer and write for hours (stories, blogs, homework, whatever), completely focused and devoted and inspired, but the second someone else enters the room it's like armageddon in my head and I lose everything.  Unfortunately this has occassionally culminated in my yelling at whoever entered the room, though not for several years.
Sarah lives this one every week: I must leave the house absolutely NO LATER than 4pm on Saturday for Crossroads.  I then want to park in/near "my" area in the parking lot.  I do not obey the traffic people if they try to direct me to a closer spot.  Then I get coffee.  Always filled approx 70% of the way with the specialty flavor, then to approx 85% with regular Crossroads blend.  Then I add a lot of sugar.  Stir stir stir stir stir.  To the 90% line with cream (not milk, CREAM).  Stir.  More sugar.  Stir stir stir.  Then I BOLT to the top of the stairs on the second level because I need to be one of the first few people through the doors when they open because, and this is the most CRUCIAL and autisticy thing about me: I must sit on the first balcony, three rows back in the middle of the row.  Why?  Because, like Sheldon of the Big Bang Theory: this is my spot.  It has a direct view of the stage and of the audience, I can choose to look at either screen without moving my head too much or I can watch the stage.  It's not down on the floor where it feels "Churchy" but it's not so high up that I am disconnected.  I'm close enough to the front not to have to deal with people blocking my view usually, but not so close that I'm easily viewed from the stage, the floor, or the other sides of the balcony.  But MOST IMPORTANT is this: those particular couple of seats have the perfect lighting.  It's light enough I can see to write notes and/or draw the pictures that keep me focused, but I still don't feel like there's a spotlight on me.

Clearly I have issues.  But I am comfortable with them, no matter how inconvenient they may be to Sar (she swears it's fine), Debb, and Mike (who continually has to climb over people to get to us).

I do not like change.
PUH-lease don't make me.

Ugh.  Ok fine.  I'll think about it.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Now and then I doubt the zodiac

But then I read about Libras. And I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo Libra.






Sunday, April 22, 2012

As promised: still random

Stupid iPhone. First my nike+ app abruptly stops working, which is my main motivator to run. Then, while trying to fix the nike problem, I lose half my favorite songs. In trying to restore them I wind up telling it to install updates to my phone, hoping that will help out.
Well I don't know if it's going to help but right now I am waiting for my phone to be useable again since it's currently got the bar of doom going across it showing me that it's only 30% uploaded in 10 minutes.
And of course I was in the middle of a conversation, unaware that this update thing was going to be a long ordeal.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I "hate" technology.
Kind of in the same way I "love" running hills.

Forgot my toothbrush. (Also forgot to throw that in my randomness from the other day.)
Discovered that if I want to lay out in the sun on the back porch I have to do that at like 9 am. Otherwise the roof casts shadows over the whole deck.

55% updated. Jamie is going to be blowing up my phone.

Power went out today. Apparently my parents do not believe in flashlights. Wound up gathering candles from all over the house just to illuminate the kitchen so we could eat.

Oh no. I found another bar of doom and it's only at like 40%. Good grief!

An now my phone has restarted. And has a third bar of doom. An empty one. Showing absolutely no progress at all.

Oh thank the Lord, it's back.
That was an exciting read, wasn't it?

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Today I am random. Tomorrow I will be random

The cat tried to snuggle with me.
Instead I got hives.
Le sigh.

Finished Catch-22 after only something like 3 months. I thought I would feel more free...

Read yet another dystopian society teen novel that turned out to be part of a series that isn't finished yet. AAAARRRGGGGHH!!


"We believe in bravery.

We believe in taking action.

We believe in freedom from fear and in acquiring the skills to force the bad out of our world so that the good can prosper and thrive."

--The Dauntless, Divergent


Love it. It's such a great philosophy.


I'm sleepy but my body is all "Oh, no, it is lunch time! Time to get up and run around and have fun!"


Saturday, April 14, 2012

Goliaths

Tonight was the recommitment night for Game Change at Xroads. I thought maybe we'd get some baptisms but no luck. Boo. I mean, I'm glad people got to commit money to the initiatives and all, but to be honest, Game Change isn't my main battle right now.

I'm glad Brian brought up the fact that we all have personal Goliaths we're facing too, because while I have troops on the Game Change battlefield, most of the hardcore battling got done when we started this thing 18 months ago. Now and then I have to send in a surge or reinforcements, but the front line is being held by the people with boots on the ground. I'm in charge of making sure armor and ammo get to them, and occassionally taking care of the wounded.

I'm on the front lines of a completely different battle. My battle is one on one, a la Eowyn and the Witch King.

Picture courtesy of
http://contemplativecottage.com/tag/justice/

Witch-king: Come not between the Nazgul and his prey! Or he will not slay thee in thy turn. He will bear thee away to the houses of lamentation, beyond all darkness, where thy flesh shall be devoured, and thy shrivelled mind be left naked to the Lidless Eye.
Èowyn: Do what you will; but I will hinder it, if I may.
Witch-king: Hinder me? Thou fool. No living man may hinder me!
Èowyn: But no living man am I! You look upon a woman. Éowyn I am, Éomund's daughter. You stand between me and my lord and kin. Begone, if you be not deathless!
For living or dark undead, I will smite you, if you touch him.
God, I love her. She is so awesome. The bestest of all female characters in all of literature. (Hermione is second, fyi.)
On the way home from Xroads Toby Keith's "American Soldier" was playing and, apart from all the "Yay! Yay! USA!" overt overtones, I found it highly applicable.

I’ve counted up the cost,
I know the sacrifice
Oh and I don’t want to die for you, but if dyin’s asked of me
I’ll bear that cross with honor, cause freedom don’t come free.
Beside my brothers and my sisters,
I will proudly take a stand
When liberty’s in jeopardy,
I will always do what’s right
I’m out here on the front lines, sleep in peace tonight



I’m out here on the front lines, sleep in peace tonight.

Warning: SEVERE nerdiness ahead

Soooooo, I wandered across a HP tumblr where they've created new characters who currently attend Hogwarts or are alumni, complete with pictures of celebrities who play them, what house they're in, mini-bios, family trees etc.
And like the ginormous Potterhead I am, I decided it was time to make my own.

Stella Macmillan
Slytherin class of 2004.
Her family was shocked when Stella was sorted into Slytherin, as she came from a long line of Hufflepuffs, but given her cunning, resourcefulness, ambition, and certain amount of indecisiveness, she fit into the house well. After the Second Wizarding War she set out to help change the face of the house for the better. She gathered together like-minded Slytherins who supported school unity and disregarded blood status as an important factor. When Slytherin is referred to as a "bad" or "evil" house, she is quick to refer the speaker to Merlin and the heroes who took a stand against Voldemort such as Severus Snape, Regulus Black, Horace Slughorn, and Andromeda Tonks.

Sister is a Hufflepuff class of 2008
Parents are Hufflepuff classes of 1980 and 1981

BIO
Stella received her letter of acceptance to Hogwarts in October 1996, on her eleventh birthday but had to wait 11 months before she could start school. In the meantime her parents continued her home education in magical theory and history. In spring of 1997, when Headmaster Dumbledore was killed, her parents petitioned the Ministry for a permit to continue schooling her at home, as they believed Hogwarts was no longer safe. Over the summer they drilled her in Defense Against the Dark Arts, among other subjects.
On August 1, 1997 Voldemort took over the Ministry of Magic and ordered all school aged wizards and witches who were not muggle-born to return to school, forbidding learning at home. Summons were sent to all students that were expected to return, and Stella received hers as the family was packing in an attempt to flee England and the in evitable persecution for their blood status. The First Wizarding War had ended shortly after their own graduations from Hogwarts, and they remembered the frightening events surrounding the war vividly. They decided keeping her out of Hogwarts would put everyone in more danger than sending her, and so she was allowed to attend.
The Sorting Hat stalled when placing her, torn between all four houses. Initially torn between the Hufflepuff legacy, Ravenclaw intelligence and Slytherin cunning that it saw in her, it saw in her the desire to play a role in the battle to come from within. It offered her Gryffindor, in an effort to tempt her away from Slytherin and as a reward for the bravery she showed in her reasoning behind choosing Slytherin, but she remained steadfast.
She found members of Dumbledore's army and convinced them of her usefulness as a double agent against Snape's regime: No one suspected the quiet first year Slytherin of actively working with the rebels.
Due to the increase in Voldemort's power, her parents forbade her to return to Hogwarts in January, afraid that the family's blood status put her at risk in Slytherin House, again planning to flee. She snuck out to return to school anyway, determined to continue her subterfuge from within Slytherin. Her parents feared that demanding Headmaster Snape return her home would only draw more attention to her presence, so they remained silent.
By May 2, 1998 Stella had been driven out of Slytherin and was living in the room of requirement with other members of the DA and other muggle-borns, where they furthered their magical education with the help from 7th years and duels. When Harry Potter arrived and McGonagall instructed all first and second years escorted from the school for their safety, Stella was whisked away to Hogsmeade by Madame Pomfrey and Filch. She was able to slip away in the chaos, however, when her own Head of House, Horace Slughorn, led reinforcements back onto the grounds. Stella was able to survive the battle thanks to her early start in her education as well as the weeks spent living with the DA in the room of requirement. Despite being only a first year, she had at least third year skills in Defense Against the Dark Arts and had always had a knack for jinxes.
After the war, Stella returned to Hogwarts for the remaining 6 years of her education, having the opportunity to be taught DADA on occassion by the Trio themselves, and spending her last few years with Neville Longbottom as her Herbology professor.
She received 5 Os on her OWLs in Herbology, Defense Against the Dark Arts, Potions, Charms and Transfiguration and continued to take them as NEWT level classes. Despite being given a free pass to become an auror due to her experience at the Battle of Hogwarts, she studied to become a Healer and went on to work at St. Mungo's instead.

Relationships with other characters
Stella became very close to Ginny Weasley and Neville Longbottom, who were the only two who knew of her involvement while working as a mole for the DA. She also made many friends throughout the 4 hourses in her efforts to unite the school, as well as due to her popularity after the Battle of Hogwarts and her friendship with the soon-to-be-Mrs-Ginny-Potter.
She had numerous connections to Hufflepuff due to her family, and became best friends with Hufflepuff legacy and Prefect Salara Abbott after Stella's sister Cassietta started Hogwarts in 2001.
Distantly related to the Black family.

That's all I got right now. Only took like 2 hours.
I am SUCH a nerd!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

I really have no good titles for these mish mash posts I've been writing

I actually literally felt the chunks in my vomit on the back of my tongue during the beginning of my run this morning. I stopped to puke but didn't. HARDCORE. :-P

In less disturbing news:
The trip to DC is back on! God bless AirTran for adding a few more flights at almost the last minute and so cutting the price of my tickets in half. If the small children get to be too much I shall run away, quite literally. Or go explore NYC or Boston or DC. Oh my life is so hard. Not.
Also signed up for the Hot Chocolate 15K next February in Dallas. Shall be awesome. I mean, hello, chocolate fondue at the after-party? LOVE!


Back to my less than wonderful run this morning. It was draggy. Ugh. That's what you get for eating nothing but cereal, veggie bagels and Easter candy for 3 days I guess. But it was all so delicious!!! ...until it started coming back up of course...
Moving on!

Found new hummus that tastes oh so yummy. It's made from edamame instead of chickpeas. I kind of hate chickpeas. They're so......eww.


Waiting for the second Hunger Games book to become available. I am not a patient person. Thus this is not boding well.
:(
Boo.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Today in pictures

Lucky for you, I sent Sar a buttload of pictures today from my phone, so I can share my day in picture form for once!


To the left is my first attempt at a Katniss-esque braid. I think it turned out pretty well. I did it while watching Castle (the dad from The Nanny was the bad guy. Kind of bizarre destruction of childhood...)





Then I decided to go shopping and wound up at my favorite consignment store: Snooty Fox. Spent $60 and wound up with another pair of Red Engine jeans (read: over $100 pair of great blue jeans), a pair of brand new with tags white jeans, two cute tops and the dress I'll be wearing to all my friends' weddings this summer -->


Adorable. Yes. Now I just need a date...

Next I wandered over to the antique store next door. Took me 15 minutes to realize I was now the kind of person who enjoys antiquing. Though now that I think of it, I have always enjoyed looking at old stuff. Even as a small child. My parents would go to the antique mall in Jackson and I looooooved looking at all the old toys and knick knacks. LOVED it. Can't believe it took me this long to figure out I love vintage clothes...


Anyway, while wandering around looking for vintage engagement rings (I just love looking at them and wondering about their owners. They just symbolize so much about their lives and I wonder if they were happy, if the girl said "yes" or the guy held on to it for his whole life. If the man was a solider, if he died in the war before they could get married, if she gave the ring to her daughter, if they never had kids and on and on and on) I found these gorgeous champagne flutes.
I've been looking for good champagne flutes for a while now, and these were perfect. The deciding factor came when I flipped one over and found the glass blower had etched his name and the date: 12-31-89. As in 1889, which was also etched on the bottom.Now I don't know much about this sort of thing, but I'm guessing they're worth more than the $30 I paid for 3 of them.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Ramble ramble ramble

I reeeeeeeeeeeeally needed to run today.
Didn't.
But needed to.
Dammit.

Two of my new favorite songs to hear come on the radio: Crazy Girl and Good Girl

I wouldn't last a single day
I'd probably just fade away
Without you I'd lose my mind
Before you ever came along
I was living life all wrong
The smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine
Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you?
I wouldn't dream of going nowhere
Silly woman, come here let me hold you
Have I told you lately I love you like crazy, girl?
--Eli Young Band

Hey, good girl
You got a heart of gold
You want a white wedding
And a hand you can hold
Just like you should, girl
Like every good girl does
Want a fairytale ending, somebody to love
But he’s really good at lying
Yeah, he’ll leave you in the dust
'Cause when he says forever
Well, it don’t mean much
Hey good girl
So good for him
Better back away honey
You don’t know where he’s been
Why, why you gotta be so blind?
Won’t you open up your eyes?
It’s just a matter of time 'til you find
He’s no good, girl
No good for you
You better get to getting on your goodbye shoes
--Carrie Underwood

Completely different. but I love them both. One for the lyrics, the other for the beat. Both for the play on words.

Our neighbors have been so much more noticeable today than usual. First I smelled grileld cheese for like an hour. Then they decided to practice piano. Badly. I had to crank up Pandora as loud as it would go so I could half-drown them out. So glad I didn't have to try and sleep through that.

April plans update:
Today -- library, Apple Store (FIX MY NIKE+ SENSOR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! Please?), and CSI:NY is FINALLY back from hiatus.
Tomorrow: Xroads Holy Week service. First time we've ever had one. I swear it's because God knew how much extra Xroads I'd need right now. Three full weeks of double Xroads services= Awesomesauce
Next week: Lots of work and one night to spend with Momma and Daddy!
Third week: Welll......this was going to be my DC week but that's had a bitty hiccup so now I have to decide what I'm doing. Megabus tour of Chicago-Nashville-DC-NYC-Boston? Convince someone to go on a random road trip with me? Pick up hours at work? I don't know. We shall see.
Then we've reached the final week before FLYING PIG!

The Sar-Noodle is home so it is time to start the day.
At 4:30 pm.
Yep. Sounds about right.

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Sleepless days, Prayers from Saints, and, of course, Crossroads

And the sleepless saga continues. I think I have figured it out though: I have spent so much time lying in bed worrying that now either I psychologically associate my bed with worry or there are some evil spirits of worry hanging out around my bed. Regardless, when I get home in the morning it is getting prayed over.
It was so bad when I woke up today that I lay there I couldn't get the words together to pray. I was trying to pray the armor of God, as I do when I feel particularly weak or bothered and I couldn't access any of God's promises to even start with the belt of truth. So I sent up a hail Mary (in the football sense...and kind of non football sense I guess) and prayed for some backup from the Saints who have gone before. (Side note: I don't think the saints actually intervene in our lives, but I do think they can still petition for us, just like living people can, because, well, why on earth not? And according to Revelation and possibly other NT books [Ephesians? Philippians?] they watch life unfold on earth and beg God for justice. So I assume that there are some people who watch me, and I assume they are people who faced the same kinds of things I face, thus why wouldn't they join me in praying for answers and help?)
Anyway, I prayed quickly that God would listen to the Saints who had been in my situation before in leiu of my prayers, since I couldn't actually pray anything myself. And immediately thought I need to get up out of bed. I need to get to Crossroads early. And I immediately started feeling better, more energy and all. Then on the way to Crossroads, Jamie Grace's "You Lead" came on the radio.

I've got waves that are tossin' me,
Crashin' all over my beliefs,
And in all sincerity, Lord,
I wanna be yours,
So pull me out of this mess I'm in...


As a child I heard your voice,
But as a girl I made my choice,
There is no other way for me,
I'm devoted to you...

And this world may push, may pull,
But your mercy never fails,
You lead, I'll follow, Your hands hold my tomorrow,
Your grip, Your grace, You know the way,
You guide me tenderly, yeah,
When you lead, I'll follow,
Just light the way and I'll go,
Cause I know what you got for me is more then I can see,


Sometimes when I wake up
I don't wanna rise up, Out of my bed,
too many thoughts in my head,Don't wanna be who I used to be,
Gonna take the back seat and let you lead,
So lead me on, on, on and on,
Just lead me on, on, on and on,
And I...
Need to stop, need to stop,
Cause I'm going to fast,
And I...
Know my God is still God, and You got my back...

Perfect. By the time I got to Crossroads I wasn't even feeling poorly anymore!
And then the message was great. It referenced William Wilberforce and how it took 20 years of "failure" to succeed in abolishing the slave trade. And about 10 years in, not only had he made no progress, but things actually got worse as slave traders began throwing sick slaves into the ocean because they didn't want to carry them any further (!!!). But he didn't give up, and he eventually did succeed. It took all his money, all his health, his reputation and public standing, but he and his like-minded friends did the unthinkable.
It was relevant because he also attempted to come against the sex trade in India but didn't get as far, so we are now following in his footsteps quite literally.
It was all a good reminder to
1. Not give up on my own personal challenges and missions
and 2. Life is so much bigger than just me
and 3. This particular issue I'm dealing with right now isn't my only mission. It might seem stalled but I have more than one pot on this stove so while this particular one is taking forever to boil, so to speak, and I have to wait patiently (I soooooooo did NOT pray for patience, how did I wind up with this task?), there are other pots that have progressed while I was busy elsewhere.
In other words: there is always something to do! Lots to do! I don't need to worry myself trying to accomplish things that only God can when my efforts can be more useful elsewhere at the moment.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Most exciting news! And other, you know, random crap

But first the exciting:
The guy got an apartment here in Cinci! I would continue to gush about how fabulous this is except that he has already started trying to find this blog and being the kind of girl who likes to keep her life private...except with strangers...........????..... Ok yeah I have nothing else to add to that nonsense. Suffice to say that it made my day when he told me. So far it's made my week. We'll see how long I can float on this particular cloud.

Now the random:
I am sleeping all. the. time. Like sleep 12 hours, up for 2, back to sleep for another 10 kind of sleep. Usually I couldn't make myself sleep like this if I had to. The last time this happened, which was only last month, I wound up getting sick a few days later. But I wasn't sick for long so I assume my body was getting an early jump on it? Being the medically-minded person I am, I have devised a long list of possible culprits on which to blame my new annoying sleep pattern:
1. I am getting sick
2. I have overtrained. (11 mile run and then a 9 mile run last week. This is definitely a possible contributor)
3. The emotional and psychological stress I have brought upon myself via overanalyzing and worry are making my brain short circuit
4. I sleep a little too long so my blood sugar drops so I have less energy, so I dont get up and eat, so I sleep longer, have even less energy...and so on
5. My genetic predisposition for thyroid problems has finally kicked in
And my personal favorite if-all-else-fails diagnosis...
6. I have a brain tumor.
Clearly it is number 5. I have been saying this since I was a freshman or sophomore in college. It's a slow growing tumor, what can I say.
In all seriousness it is probably a combination of 1-4. Regardless I have an appointment at the end of April for my annual physical so we shall test my theories about my A1C and thyroid then.

Until then...
SHOPPING!
Yes, I awoke at 0145 this morning after sleeping since 1400 (after being awake since only noon, after sleeping since 0800 after being awake since like 2200, after sleeping for like 20 hours....you get the picture) and wound up on etsy.
I am kind of in love with this dress: http://www.etsy.com/listing/95570607/foreign-one-bamboo-hemp-convertible Not sure if I should fork over the money for it though. I almost bought a convertible dress last year. Instead I bought like 5 different dresses throughout the summer. I do looooooooove summer dresses. And I have 2 weddings this summer plus a possible trip to Australia. In addition to normal dress wearing days. Clearly I am trying to convince myself to buy it.
I also love this top http://www.etsy.com/listing/93691337/reversible-bamboo-hemp-movement-top and this one http://www.etsy.com/listing/88902299/gypsy-tudung-bamboo-hemp-hooded-cowl and this dress too http://www.etsy.com/listing/94089692/nomad-versatile-travel-dress
I'm feeling very bohemian this year. It fits with my theme of being alive.

Except, as always, I'm also classic. So classic I'm trying to buy a house. Even though I'd rather be a nomad and travel all over the world for the rest of my days (the problem being no one will join me and I am far too social a creature to do it alone). And the house that I have managed to want is beyond what i want to spend by 30-40K. http://sibcycline.com/viewlisting.asp?mls=1304165&b=CIN&p=RESI&s=SFRD&m=1&sender=SearchResults&a=4242-Duneden-Ave-Deer-Park-OH-45236

Ah, oh well. Life shall work itself out. (Clearly still floating on the aforementioned cloud)

One last linky link from etsy http://www.etsy.com/shop/HarmlessHabit Most adorable flasks ever. Can't even decide which one I love most, so here are all of them.

Last Wednesday tonight. Meeting Mike's new girl. Pretty excited about that.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

It's a quarter after five and I'm wide awake

Sar, Maggie and I went to see Hunger Games last night and it was by far the best adaptation from a book that I have ever seen. Casting was superb. The actress who plays Katniss was able to exhibit such a wide range of believable emotions with just her eyes. Donald Sutherland was perfect as the evil yet slightly apathetic ruler. Rue was a-dor-a-ble. The deaths were not realistic, ie. not as grusome as I pictured but it was PG-13, what do you want? The way they used the commentators to give us the information we learned from Katniss' thoughts in the book was genius and also a nice break now and then from the action, as well as showing just how creepy their society is in their love of brutality for sport. All in all very much worth seeing.
Also I loved her hair. I love braids. I want to wear all those hairstyles.
Finally bought new work shoes. Hooray!
Finally cleaned the house. Finally.
Ran 20 miles total this week and my knee finally stopped hurting. Thank God.
House hunting was a bust. So dissappointing.
Got my copy of Eat, Pray, Love in the mail yesterday and an email tonight that my electronic copy of Crossed was available to be dowloaded from the library. It's a weekend of reading. So fabulous.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Random update from the breakroom at work

I finally got into Dr Who!! It doesn't hurt that the tenth dr is just adoooooorable.
Almost makes up for the dissappointing house hunting trip.
Also, I've realized that I'm just not living in the moment so I'm trying to be more zen and meditate and all so I can stop focusing on the possible disappointments of the future and just enjoy the now.

Friday, March 16, 2012

If you want to understand me...

Read Harry Potter (beginning to end, no skipping around, no spoilers and no movies until you're done reading)
Go to Crossroads (every week or you'll miss something)


Yep. That's pretty much it, methinks.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Back by popular demand

So here's the rundown of the exciting things I am expecting in the months to come...

March: PALS recerts = less hours doing my usual work at work. Yippee!!

April: Washington DC and time with the 'rents for Dad's birthday. Lots of running, sunbathing, sightseeing (I now know to get to the washington monument at like 6am *yawn*), and eating pakistani food. Ooooooooh

May: Flying Pig half marathon! Coming up so fast!!

June: Little Miami Triathlon with the girls from work. There will be team t-shirts. Legend...wait for it...dary!

July: Australia? I think yes. Long ass flight spent wondering if I'll wind up crash landing on the island from Lost, 5 days with a gorgeous view of the city from my hotel room with it's own kitchen, kayaking, rock climbing, rapelling, snorkeling, cuddling koalas, feeding dolphins, exploring caves teeming with glow worms and otherwise braving the most dangerous continent. Not that I've already researched and priced all of these things. (Yes, I have). Now I just need to find someone to keep me entertained on the flight over...

August: Lisa's wedding. (Aka excuse to buy a nice dress and all the accessories.) Also mom's 50th birthday and all the shenanigans that entails. And the Crossroads Florence site opens.

September: Renaissance Fair! Color Run! Bourbon Chase! Fall begins!!!! Also paramedic school should be starting....I really need to get on that...

October: Best day of the year (14th), a secret baby is due (lucky baby: October is the best month to be born!), and HALLOWEEN!!!!

November: TFD, Turkey day, Thanksgiving program at Sarah's school, Thanksgiving day at work

DECEMBER: Hobbit movie premier (I will be dressed up in full regalia), Zombie run, Angel tree, bebe seester's day of birth, Awaited, Christmas Eve in the ED, Christmas!!!!!!!!!!

For once there is something planned every month, even before September! And then next year should bring a GoIndia trip, possible house buying, and my first marathon. Oh my life is so exciting.